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[Jul. 14th, 2005|07:23 pm] |
To some things up: I did something very stupid yesterday, the same thing that got me in trouble in the first place, and my trip to CIY was threatened. I then procceeded to do something even dumber, which my parents do not know about, and made things worse with myself and my friends. Well...today I was talking to my mom...and we made a compromise. I could go to CIY if I didn't play video games until we left (which is in like...3 days) What did they expect me to say? I'm going to go play socom? Yeah right! I'm going to CIY baby!
I'm really sorry for what I did...I regret it more than I've ever regretted doing anything. There is nothing I can do or say that can make up the pain I have caused the ones I love. All I can do is get better...and not do anything stupid ever again. The worst part of it all was probably the fact that I did something that stupid 4 days before CIY. Gah. I am an idiot.
It's been a really rough day. My two best friends have rightfully yelled at me, and are angry with me, and it hurts to know that I hurt them. Also, this morning, I discovered a lump on one of my breasts...which really worries me...because my grandmother died of breash cancer and my mom has had maaaany breast cancer scares. I'm supposed to not worry about it for now, but it may become a problem within the next few weeks if it doesnt go away. |
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